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Faced Depressing Times
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Well, about time I wrote something here. It's been a very painful time on my end, Those in Britain know one of the issues. I've been put onto antidepressants of late, and honestly, a lot of my motivation to do what I enjoy is long dead. Spriting has become vaguely impossible for me to de since I kinda prefer sitting on a chair than a bed and got no other way to sprite or draw. My new Tablet works okay I guess? Some reason my only drawing program, Adobe Photoshop Essentials (it's really old, version 8?) lags inputs but seems to function properly. Gonna need to think of a good alternative for Photoshop though and maybe ask a friend to help me use my tablet effectively I guess? I've also struggle to talk to my old friends because of anxiety and poor trust levels. It's not you guys, it's me. I always have anxiety. When it came to friends, they hurt me the most. I became so withdrawn because of it. I'm trying to get out of it though, but fear of people also causes problems.
Outside life problems, this new Eclipse mode, its confusing to use. Nice but I have no clue how to write new anything with it.
Outside life problems, this new Eclipse mode, its confusing to use. Nice but I have no clue how to write new anything with it.
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Need to open up
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Ok, so first up, Yeah It's too hard to maintain a skeleton after I lost the original one. Anyways, I should say this now.
While I am still not 100% keen on certain adult material, I did discover that there were a few instances of it that... oddly doesn't bother me. The main reason for being against it is rather personal at best. My father was my main reason. What changed my opinion of it was when a friend of mine suggested that I should probably look into a certain Manga when I wanted to understand it better. It was around that time when I realized that I was wrong to assume the material is always bad. Sure, like I said, it still bothers me a bit but I learnt that maybe I was a bit strict about it. No, I will not be using this as a reason to start posting nudes or whatnots. I may not be as dignified, I'm not comfortable about posting such material. Despite that, I have actually drawn and even sprited characters from said manga that friend suggested. as well as Miis for them. Who knows, maybe someday I'll post fanart from the higher age grouped stuff that didn't make me feel uncomfortable.
For now though, I'm gonna try and find some kind of inspiration first to get back into drawing. Until then, I'll be posting Journals to keep my account alive. Right now, I kinda want a Pink Celebi XD
While I am still not 100% keen on certain adult material, I did discover that there were a few instances of it that... oddly doesn't bother me. The main reason for being against it is rather personal at best. My father was my main reason. What changed my opinion of it was when a friend of mine suggested that I should probably look into a certain Manga when I wanted to understand it better. It was around that time when I realized that I was wrong to assume the material is always bad. Sure, like I said, it still bothers me a bit but I learnt that maybe I was a bit strict about it. No, I will not be using this as a reason to start posting nudes or whatnots. I may not be as dignified, I'm not comfortable about posting such material. Despite that, I have actually drawn and even sprited characters from said manga that friend suggested. as well as Miis for them. Who knows, maybe someday I'll post fanart from the higher age grouped stuff that didn't make me feel uncomfortable.
For now though, I'm gonna try and find some kind of inspiration first to get back into drawing. Until then, I'll be posting Journals to keep my account alive. Right now, I kinda want a Pink Celebi XD
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Want to draw, but can't.
2 min read
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News from the other side
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Still refusing to revive my dA, but... yeah... <Insert Phoenix Down here>
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Want to draw, but not able to
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Drawing, I've not done it for ages. Before it was natural to me but lately, I can't seem to get the mood back even if I want to draw something. My latest upload was almost 2 years ago, yet my latest (and actually first colored drawing) is to be remained offline at a friend's request. I just don't get it... When I want to, I can't. What could it be that I'm missing? I can't seem to ask even the friends I respect a lot for assistance.
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My luck with shinies... It still continues...
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Although this is likely old news to those who have my facebook. When it comes to shinies, my luck still continues on from the last time I wrote here. My total of shinies have increased from whatever the last number I found was to 18. This includes First Masuda from 2 Pokemon. Spritzee and Ralts. Ironically, all my fairies, excluding Clefairy who was Normal in Gen 5, game from eggs. Latest encounter, being Ralts, was an encounter I hoped for in a Female Modest for a Mega Gardevoir, but oh well, a Male Adamant will have to do.
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That's pretty much it.
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Check out the bookmarks below to see some important pages.
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Bookmarked Journals
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<halkel-da-thunderhog.deviantar… Friend Codes, Steam and PSN
News from the other side
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Still refusing to revive my dA, but... yeah... <Insert Phoenix Down here>
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Want to draw, but not able to
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Drawing, I've not done it for ages. Before it was natural to me but lately, I can't seem to get the mood back even if I want to draw something. My latest upload was almost 2 years ago, yet my latest (and actually first colored drawing) is to be remained offline at a friend's request. I just don't get it... When I want to, I can't. What could it be that I'm missing? I can't seem to ask even the friends I respect a lot for assistance.
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My luck with shinies... It still continues...
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Although this is likely old news to those who have my facebook. When it comes to shinies, my luck still continues on from the last time I wrote here. My total of shinies have increased from whatever the last number I found was to 18. This includes First Masuda from 2 Pokemon. Spritzee and Ralts. Ironically, all my fairies, excluding Clefairy who was Normal in Gen 5, game from eggs. Latest encounter, being Ralts, was an encounter I hoped for in a Female Modest for a Mega Gardevoir, but oh well, a Male Adamant will have to do.
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That's pretty much it.
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Check out the bookmarks below to see some important pages.
***End***
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Bookmarked Journals
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<halkel-da-thunderhog.deviantar… Friend Codes, Steam and PSN
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I live to comment... and Wii U.
3 min read
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News from the other side
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Been a long absence, but here we go again
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Not been drawing much still but 12 "Yeahs" in 15 minutes in Miiverse!?
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Yep, I got a Wii U, I'm under the Mii called PSO2Halkel, search Halkel as usual. If you're wondering, the Mii PSO2Halkel is a Mii that reassembles the Persona I made in the Phantasy Star Online 2 Character Creator. Anyways, I did a drawing on the Miiverse of the Pokemon X & Y starters with outlines of the Legendary Pokemon's Mugs in the empty space. 12 Yeahs in 15 minutes!? You gotta be ****ing me. I get more Yeah! on the Wii U then I can get in favourites on here, Sheezyart AND Furaffinity put together, and it's still increasing (while typing this, 15 Yeahs already). Am I really that good at drawing? Am I putting myself down too much? I'm confused. I don't ever get anything online yet I got my first Yeah within the first minute of putting it up. I'm in shock right now. I think I'm falling for this console now. XD I'll post my Wii U drawing up on here one day, depending on mood and number of people who would like to see it.
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Lost University project recovered
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Today I can work on several old projects from University. The biggest of these projects, since I was already working on one of them, is the game titled Dragoon Master: Elizabeth's Quest. After Uni, I had a block after undoing a lot of hard work making the system, causing the game to show no graphics and no memory to replace it. I found an 8 step Prototype in my USB drive when checking it for files I won't need anymore including each step I took to make the game Starting with the Tile mapping system, followed by the basic movements for the player character including a minor flawed collision system (the right of a solid tile causes the player to levitate when they can normally walk through it), Additional maps the player can access, the ability for the player to shoot projectiles and so on. This was a coursework for hitting a specific target audience and in that case, targeting Modern gamers to feel the basic, yet revolutionary Game Boy that started the Handheld generation in the past as well as giving hints of Nostalgia to those who miss playing said game system
. The game itself is in working order, including a Game Over placeholder, working enemies, projectiles and now flawless platforming action (after so long, it took over a year to figure out something that required one small equasion that returns a remainder, the glitch in the system mentioned now no longer causes the character to float on a tile near a solid tile that isn't solid). I just gotta make it so it'll play as planned at Uni. I might arrange a Live Stream of the projects so I can get some ideas for the game in question and any other project but that won't be until I got all the planned kinks functional.
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That's pretty much it.
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Check out the bookmarks below to see some important pages.
***End***
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Bookmarked Journals
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<halkel-da-thunderhog.deviantar…> Pokemon Adoption Center
<Soon> Pokemon WiFi Champions
<halkel-da-thunderhog.deviantar…> Friend Codes, Steam and PSN
<Soon> Projects
<Soon> Pokemon Team Databank
<Soon> Character Profiles
News from the other side
*********************************
Been a long absence, but here we go again
*********************************
Not been drawing much still but 12 "Yeahs" in 15 minutes in Miiverse!?
*********************************
Yep, I got a Wii U, I'm under the Mii called PSO2Halkel, search Halkel as usual. If you're wondering, the Mii PSO2Halkel is a Mii that reassembles the Persona I made in the Phantasy Star Online 2 Character Creator. Anyways, I did a drawing on the Miiverse of the Pokemon X & Y starters with outlines of the Legendary Pokemon's Mugs in the empty space. 12 Yeahs in 15 minutes!? You gotta be ****ing me. I get more Yeah! on the Wii U then I can get in favourites on here, Sheezyart AND Furaffinity put together, and it's still increasing (while typing this, 15 Yeahs already). Am I really that good at drawing? Am I putting myself down too much? I'm confused. I don't ever get anything online yet I got my first Yeah within the first minute of putting it up. I'm in shock right now. I think I'm falling for this console now. XD I'll post my Wii U drawing up on here one day, depending on mood and number of people who would like to see it.
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Lost University project recovered
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Today I can work on several old projects from University. The biggest of these projects, since I was already working on one of them, is the game titled Dragoon Master: Elizabeth's Quest. After Uni, I had a block after undoing a lot of hard work making the system, causing the game to show no graphics and no memory to replace it. I found an 8 step Prototype in my USB drive when checking it for files I won't need anymore including each step I took to make the game Starting with the Tile mapping system, followed by the basic movements for the player character including a minor flawed collision system (the right of a solid tile causes the player to levitate when they can normally walk through it), Additional maps the player can access, the ability for the player to shoot projectiles and so on. This was a coursework for hitting a specific target audience and in that case, targeting Modern gamers to feel the basic, yet revolutionary Game Boy that started the Handheld generation in the past as well as giving hints of Nostalgia to those who miss playing said game system
. The game itself is in working order, including a Game Over placeholder, working enemies, projectiles and now flawless platforming action (after so long, it took over a year to figure out something that required one small equasion that returns a remainder, the glitch in the system mentioned now no longer causes the character to float on a tile near a solid tile that isn't solid). I just gotta make it so it'll play as planned at Uni. I might arrange a Live Stream of the projects so I can get some ideas for the game in question and any other project but that won't be until I got all the planned kinks functional. *********************************
That's pretty much it.
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Check out the bookmarks below to see some important pages.
***End***
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Bookmarked Journals
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<halkel-da-thunderhog.deviantar…> Pokemon Adoption Center
<Soon> Pokemon WiFi Champions
<halkel-da-thunderhog.deviantar…> Friend Codes, Steam and PSN
<Soon> Projects
<Soon> Pokemon Team Databank
<Soon> Character Profiles
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News from the other side
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A year without submissions, and still all you get is another Journal? This may all change with your help.
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Breaking the chain, and failing
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No, I'm not talking about a shiny this time, I'm talking about a whole year without a drawing on this account. I've not been in a drawing mood for a long time, since the only thing that keeps me going is the views. I break easily because I've been so lonely with no friends for a long time, even though the situation's changed, I still don't see the point in drawing. Its most likely because I can't do things for myself. A lot of reasons I do things and break down in misery is for that alone. I brought an art kit I've been trying to use but the lack of inspiration and point isn't being of much help. The cat already broke the box it's in @.@. What I need is a new point of view, a new reason to look back into drawing. My skills are improving despite the use of pencils because of my skills at Spriting things. Any ideas, feel free to tell me and we can talk about it. I still dunno how to get people's attention but if Doza is continuingly willing to draw despite the absence, There has to be something for me out there too. reopening this will give me the ability to form Concept Art for my game plans in the future.
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About the tournament
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Sadly, I was unable to win at the tournament, it was a real heart-breaker as there's a huge chance that I'd never be able to get to another. The worst part was I was interviewed for Nintendo TV, the embarrassment didn't help me as the loss in the first round made me lash out despite giving the competitor a friendly handshake, the memories of me taking 3 years just to get there came back and it didn't help (The illusion of willpower in my interview and confidence of winning). My sister brought me to my senses. What if there will never be another year with me at this tournament? That is currently the most painful thing in my heart left at that day. I really want to be known for my tactics and uniqueness. Something very lacked in pokemon now-a-days. Came home with Pokemon Cards (with figures of Zekrom and Reshiram aka Fluffy) and a bunch of Cuddly toys, the toys were first as I needed something to hold tight. I'm such a defeatist and a poor loser, thinking about what'll happen if I'll never make it to another event. The only kudos for me that wasn't really worth mentioning was that I stayed in a hotel for the first time on the other side of the UK just to join it. The only best memory was the Knockout rounds, I should've used Mandibuzz in the tournament since it is just plain evil here. The team used was as follows:
A shiny Skarmory called Gilgamesh (i forgot its female, it's my trapper)
A shiny Latias called Gold Wing (Madame I-think-this-belongs-to-you, converting its own type and throwing back status problems thrown at it)
A Rotom called Persil (All out Striker)
A Gengar called DarkSpirit (An improved variant of Armageddon caught from the Dream World thanks to its move Sludge Wave)
A Mienshao called Glacia (Fakes the opponent to ensure problems to over-rated tactics)
A Snorlax called Munchy (A Bulky Wall)
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That's pretty much it.
*********************************
Check out the bookmarks below to see some important pages.
***End***
*********************************
Bookmarked Journals
*********************************
<halkel-da-thunderhog.deviantar…> Pokemon Adoption Center
<Soon> Pokemon WiFi Champions
<halkel-da-thunderhog.deviantar…> Friend Codes, Steam and PSN
<Soon> Projects
<Soon> Pokemon Team Databank
<Soon> Character Profiles
News from the other side
*********************************
A year without submissions, and still all you get is another Journal? This may all change with your help.
*********************************
Breaking the chain, and failing
*********************************
No, I'm not talking about a shiny this time, I'm talking about a whole year without a drawing on this account. I've not been in a drawing mood for a long time, since the only thing that keeps me going is the views. I break easily because I've been so lonely with no friends for a long time, even though the situation's changed, I still don't see the point in drawing. Its most likely because I can't do things for myself. A lot of reasons I do things and break down in misery is for that alone. I brought an art kit I've been trying to use but the lack of inspiration and point isn't being of much help. The cat already broke the box it's in @.@. What I need is a new point of view, a new reason to look back into drawing. My skills are improving despite the use of pencils because of my skills at Spriting things. Any ideas, feel free to tell me and we can talk about it. I still dunno how to get people's attention but if Doza is continuingly willing to draw despite the absence, There has to be something for me out there too. reopening this will give me the ability to form Concept Art for my game plans in the future.
*********************************
About the tournament
*********************************
Sadly, I was unable to win at the tournament, it was a real heart-breaker as there's a huge chance that I'd never be able to get to another. The worst part was I was interviewed for Nintendo TV, the embarrassment didn't help me as the loss in the first round made me lash out despite giving the competitor a friendly handshake, the memories of me taking 3 years just to get there came back and it didn't help (The illusion of willpower in my interview and confidence of winning). My sister brought me to my senses. What if there will never be another year with me at this tournament? That is currently the most painful thing in my heart left at that day. I really want to be known for my tactics and uniqueness. Something very lacked in pokemon now-a-days. Came home with Pokemon Cards (with figures of Zekrom and Reshiram aka Fluffy) and a bunch of Cuddly toys, the toys were first as I needed something to hold tight. I'm such a defeatist and a poor loser, thinking about what'll happen if I'll never make it to another event. The only kudos for me that wasn't really worth mentioning was that I stayed in a hotel for the first time on the other side of the UK just to join it. The only best memory was the Knockout rounds, I should've used Mandibuzz in the tournament since it is just plain evil here. The team used was as follows:
A shiny Skarmory called Gilgamesh (i forgot its female, it's my trapper)
A shiny Latias called Gold Wing (Madame I-think-this-belongs-to-you, converting its own type and throwing back status problems thrown at it)
A Rotom called Persil (All out Striker)
A Gengar called DarkSpirit (An improved variant of Armageddon caught from the Dream World thanks to its move Sludge Wave)
A Mienshao called Glacia (Fakes the opponent to ensure problems to over-rated tactics)
A Snorlax called Munchy (A Bulky Wall)
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That's pretty much it.
*********************************
Check out the bookmarks below to see some important pages.
***End***
*********************************
Bookmarked Journals
*********************************
<halkel-da-thunderhog.deviantar…> Pokemon Adoption Center
<Soon> Pokemon WiFi Champions
<halkel-da-thunderhog.deviantar…> Friend Codes, Steam and PSN
<Soon> Projects
<Soon> Pokemon Team Databank
<Soon> Character Profiles
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